The Epistle

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A couple of days ago, while browsing my facebook page, I bumped into a poem shared by a friend. It was a poem in Odiya and it gave a different perspective of letter writing that I liked. It had touched the change in the preference of the people of modern age to communicate texts rather than feelings and exhorts all to forget the snail mail. How painful! The poet also tries to explore the reason why people no longer write letters these days. People may love old letters to read and feel nostalgic about the moments that have passed them by; they may love to receive letters from their near and dear ones soaked in love and affection; yet writing may not be always spontaneous. Sometimes a letter may be the one that comes to us as an object of victory over laziness, alibis and so forth. Here the poet has his excuse: the lack of words. Really! Such a poverty is enervating and in its most debilitating form it constitutes a writer's block. I've the permission of the poet Prakash Mohapatra to translate it. Here are its English and Hindi renderings.

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Epistle

A Poem by Prakash Mohapatra

Translated from Odiya to English by A. N. Nanda

Publication History: Unpublished

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‘Cause I’ve promised you, so

I’ll write to you for sure

But then wait my buddy

You’ll have to wait a while only.

Is it so easy to write a letter

If one possesses a mere pen

and just a sheet of paper?

Where have gone those appealing words?

Can they be traced somewhere?

Look, how strange they are!

God only knows

Where do they stray—

Do they go for shopping, or

To enjoy their tryst

On the bank of Yamuna?

Do they visit opera, or

Go to transplant the rice seedlings?

They’ll return but

When they come back

I only wish my pen

Does not go dry by then

Nor, for that matter,

I do fall asleep and snore!

It’s a fact I’m growing old so fast

Specs on my nose only show that

And, as such, there’s no hindrance

These days,

For these wanton words to go astray

So facilely, their adulterous way.

Probably they’re too quick to suss

The ambiance of the city of nerves

Now that it has gone frigid of late.

I know your eyes must have gone dry

Waiting for a letter, for ever

Expectations must have been belied

Tracking endlessly the approach of postman

Still, I can imagine how

You’d be peeping through the window

Somehow keeping alive your hopes.

How can you realize

How desperate I’m

Unable to pen a letter for you?

The words have simply strayed away

Like those wayward cows

And I’m the helpless cowboy

Exhausted, running after them.

What’s there left in this letter?

We’re talking so much, day in, day out

In our dreams, in reveries

And over telephones, through our mobiles

How about the idea

To forget this letter

Once for all?

To what an extent should we exchange

All these false excuses, again and again?

How many cities of falsehood

Can we afford to wander all this way?

Should we go on and on

Building castles of excuses

By the brick of all these elusive words?

Just to think aloud for a moment—

I’d rather post this paper

A plain paper, treating it as a letter

Taking it that all my thoughts dear

Must have gone onto its surface

To make it ever so poignant

And, here’s a request from my side

An issue you’re not going to make out of it

Even though

You’ve failed to follow

its contents.

So, say what you may

After all, it’s a good idea

And I’m only too convinced about that

Not to chase these elusive words

Never ever and never again….

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Translated by

A. N. Nanda

Shimla

13-06-2014

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चिट्ठी

A Poem by Prakash Mohapatra

Translated from Odiya to Hindi by A. N. Nanda

Publication History: Unpublished

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चूँकि मैंने ही कहा था

कि चिट्ठी एक ज़रूर लिखूँगा

सो लिखूँगा ज़रूर, मगर

करना ही होगा यार तुम्हें 

थोडा सा इंतजार ।

क्या चिट्ठी लिखना ऐसे ही हो जाएगा

केवल कागज़ कलम जुटा लेने पर ?

कहाँ गए वे सब बने-ठने शब्द ?

हैं कहीं जहाँ मैं उन्हें तलाश सकूँ ?

देखो, कितने अजीब हैं वे सब!

रब ही जाने, कहाँ वे ओझल हो जाते हैं—

क्या जाते हैं वे बाज़ार घूमने

या यमुना तीर

कुछ रूमानी अहसास बटोरने

अथवा नाटक देखने जाते हैं वे 

शायद, नहीं तो फिर धान रोपने जाते ही होंगे ।

आएँगे वे पर क्या पता तब तक   

कलम मेरा सूख गया होगा या नहीं

और क्या पता

मैं भी स्वयं ऊँघने लगा होगा शायद!

     

सच है यह कि मैं अब प्रौढ़ता की ओर

तेजी से भागने लगा हूँ

नाक पर ऐनक इसका सबूत है ।

यहाँ परगामिनी शब्द किसी बाधा के बगैर

चुन चुके हैं अपने लिए बेवफाई की राह ।  

लगता है उन्हें पता चल ही गया हो, आख़िरकार  

कैसे ठंड पड़ गई है हवा यहाँ  

अब नसों की रुग्ण नगरी में।   

जानता हूँ मैं कि कैसे तुम्हारी आँखे सूख गई होंगी

मेरी एक दुष्प्राप्य चिठ्ठी के इंतज़ार में

प्रतीक्षाएँ हताशा में तबदील हो गई होंगी

रोज डाकिए की बाट जोह कर

फिर भी, सोचता हूँ

उम्मीदें तुम में कायम रही होंगी

और तुम खिड़की से ताकते रहते ही होगे रोज ।   

कैसे तुम समझोगे

चिट्ठी एक लिखने में असमर्थ मैं  

कितना व्याकुल हूँ अब?

भगोड़ी गाय जैसे   

इन भटके हुए शब्दों का पीछा करते-करते  

अब मैं कितना थक-सा गया हूँ?     

क्या रखा है इन चिट्ठियों में, अब  

दिन रात कितनी बातें कर लेते हैं हम लोग

इन चिट्ठियों के बगैर

सपनों में, कल्पनाओं में, दूरभाष में

सेल-फोन से चिपक कर हिलते-डुलते ।

कैसी होगी यह बात अगर

हम हमेशा के लिए भूल ही जाते हैं

इन चिट्ठियों का आदान प्रदान !

    

कब तक होता चलेगा

इन झूठे बहानों का लेन-देन?

कब तक करते रहेंगे हम

इन नकली शहरों का सफ़र?

कब तक रचते जाएँगे इरादों की इमारत

इन बेवफ़ा शब्दों पर भरोसा जता कर?      

सोचता हूँ भेज दूँ तुम तक  

समझ कर चिट्ठी इस कोरे कागज़ को

मान लूँगा इस पर लिखी गई हैं

मेरी सारी भावनाएँ

पर अर्ज़ है यह मेरी तरफ से

गिला ही छोड़ दो यार और

समझ सकते हो तो समझ लेना भई

यह चिट्ठी है मेरी, तुम्हारे लिए ।    

चाहे तुम कुछ भी कहो

आख़िरकार अच्छाई इसमे है

कि इन शब्दों के पीछे भागना

छोड़ ही दिया जाए...   

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Translated by

A. N. Nanda

Shimla

13-06-2014

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From Rohtang to Manikaran: Blow Cold n Blow Hot

From Rohtang to Manikaran : Blow Cold n Blow Hot

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At the First Blush of Sun

Lord Shiva lives in Himalayas. So, here follows the big logic: a visit to the Himalayas would endow us with a Shiva-like insight, the Himalayan wisdom. Aha! Come summer vacation of children, the schools are closed and leaves are granted, and we the liberated souls--all rush to Manali…and then, much before the early bird has begun to grub out its worm, and even before the first blush of the sun is seen on the distant peaks, we’re on our way to Rohtang Pass. If not the Mt. Everest, it must be Rohtang Pass, at least. Result: there forms a serpentine queue on the Manali-Leh Highway, nay, a maddening melee rather, and we’re just there to elongate it. Before we realise, a queue is formed, long enough to cover the entire switchback from top to bottom with no room to overtake, no liberty to choose the pace, no idea how to reverse.... Glued to our seats inside our almost stationary cars desperate to acquire the rationed asphalt of a few inches ahead, the adventurous we, the inspired seekers of Shiva-insight, have to wait for our turns to move ahead. It is a snail’s speed, to use an oft-repeated simile.

That was the picture, nay, the big picture.

Aha! How funny it is to imagine Lord Shiva moving about the great mountain range from peak to peak by the help of a bull! From Zanskar to Pir Panjal and then to Dhauladhar and then to small tibbas and joths of Shivalik, he has only a bull to take him around! It must be a special bull, I say. It must be more powerful than these Innovas and Marutis and Taveras and Mahindras and Traxs’ and Travellers that try to trundle up….

The Petrol-guzzling Crabs Crawling to the Summit

Well, Shiva’s bull could be powerful. There’s no issue, for it’s the divine bull. But the question is should we, with the help of our Innovas and Marutis and stuff perform the wanderings that Lord Shiva did in his wisdom? Then, should we smoke Ganja because He’s fond of that? And call it a recreational drug? Again, if so, shouldn’t we swallow poison, too, to save the universe like Lord Shiva once did? Why don’t we agree that everyone cannot be a Shiva, the wanderer of the Himalayas? It's a sheer travesty of common sense I say!

Joking apart, a trip to Rohtang was a must—we decided. Agreed, we’re small creatures, nothing compared to Lord Shiva nor our cars anywhere near His celebrated bull, and yet a trip to Rohtang Pass was something we needed. Aha! Badly needed! No compromise on that. It was for enhancing our spiritual insights, something different from worldly wisdom. Don’t they say great people must go to great places? So we decided to visit a great place. That’s all about the logic. And anything less than that was not to be tolerated. It would be below dignity. In order to beat the crowd, let’s start at four a.m.—that was an ungodly hour yet our unanimous decision. We the seekers of God chose an ungodly hour to step out. So early! Aha! We ought to be the early birds, super duper early birds. There were no worms to catch, yet we the early birds would get some photographs of the snow-peaked mountains at the first blush of the sun, of a resplendent golden peak. As for me, I took a snap but I could not do it a minute too soon from the running car. So, what I gathered was, let me put it like this, the second best.

Vyas Kund: Nobody Need Feel Let Down not Having Seen it.

We had a few days of snowfall on Rohtang Pass immediately preceding our trip. It was the beginning of June—no time to snow even on the hilltops. The weather forecast for the day was good but that was applicable to Manali only. Nothing could so certainly be said of the conditions prevailing at high altitude. Anyhow we moved on, for the proverbial well-begun phase was over and what lay ahead was only the other half of the job, the happier half: we looked forward to it.

We reached Gulaba. There were cars ahead of us and there were many following. And we moved on. The wind was violent, cold and scarily swishy. The trees we saw through our window were restless, shaking from side to side in violent swings. As we went ahead just beyond the cedars and chinars, the wind became colder and gustier. It was there, as it were, to warn us—how dare you break the tranquility here! How dare you pollute the oxygen-thin air of the Himalayas! Don’t you know it’s the land of Lord Shiva? You’ve come all this way to the sacred land even without having a bath! Shame on you, you the sinners of the low land, shame on you!

And then there were wind and more wind, and all the cold and biting and swishing winds of the Himalayas blowing from all directions. Somehow we moved on. Soon Beas Nala was in sight. We should at least reach up to that—that was the resolve. If not Beas Kund atop Rohtang Pass, Beas Nala would do. Beyond that it would be risk…and that was the silent warning from inner instincts. Don’t they say discretion is the better part of valour? Now the option was crystal clear…to everybody without exception. And we left our vehicles to allow them to reverse and get ready to double back. 

Until they were ready, we had some time at our disposal. So we could do something for the experience’s sake. Having come all this distance, we could loiter a while: it was the minimum we ought to do to claim the distinction of being the blessed Himalayan travelers. And we moved about—or at least tried to do that. But then, in order to do that, we needed some more warmth. We scrambled for some extra clothing. The road-side entrepreneur renting those old and dirty gowns quoted her price: one hundred bucks for one piece. We agreed, reluctantly though. And as we moved in the windy landscape, we tottered, unsure of the direction of our steps, our body refusing to switch on—nay tune in—its emergency output system that could generate some extra heat. It was like trying to fry potato on a frying pan with the gas below it turned off. Reluctant steps ultimately took some of us up to the Nala. Now the bridge was there to cross. Or else how would we say we had a trip to Rohtang Pass, the abode of Vyas the wise man? There were already particles of snow dust in the air, all of them flying from the Pir Panjal ranges to the Rohtang Pass, unhindered and straight into our nostrils. The cold had, as though, grown a few extra sets of teeth, the serrated ones that started ruthlessly biting at their favourite spots—the ears that had welcome pores into which it merrily entered, singing its sibilant whispers, nay the swishing songs of sadism; the eyes that suddenly shed tears that began to freeze; the lips that went numb and desiccated. Even our spines cracked, noses bled, not to speak of those sensitive teeth that did not take the name of stopping to rattle for the fraction of a second.

Way to Rohtang: On Another Fine Day

So, Rohtang was an impossible spot to reach—it was a common realization to dawn on our cold-beaten brains. And we cast our cursory glances around to see at least something, to invest our hard-earned moments to gather a minimum of recipe for our memory. The blocks of snow bereft of their white lustre, the rippling waves of Beas Nala, the sky that promised brightness, maybe, in a little while—none could hold our inspiration. I began to lose all the warmth of my body all of a sudden…and it was as rapid as a candy-floss losing its shape. Just ten minutes: and that was the maximum I could have stayed and not a second more. Let’s double back—as though all of us were thinking aloud and then the vehicle trundled downhill. As we’re coming down, we found upcoming vehicles were queuing for a couple of kilometers--or more, maybe--and the number was still burgeoning. Some brave and inspired tourists, clad in hired wind-cheaters and sundry overalls, eager to anyhow reach the snow point were plodding their way against the punishing gust blowing from the dreadful precipices. There were crying children too, dawdling, unwilling to endorse the courage of their parents. I pitifully looked at them and felt like offering them a lift but only in the return directions. Tut-tut! My poor kids—it’s not always a good idea to be born to the brave parents!

On Way to Rohtang: Another Fine Day

The next day: it was an episode of heat. Something different, for a change. The scene was Manikaran, its sulphur bathing pool. Gosh! So hot it was! And let me not forget: it was June. I was literally searching an appropriate alibi not to take a dip. But then there were many bath freaks around, giving free lectures on the benefits of a sulphur bath. It’s good for skin; it’s good for muscle pain; it’s good for backache; it’s good for digestion…. Hold it! Are they asking me to sip some sulphur water? Eek! No way. But then, not taking bath would confirm my lack of courage, besides depriving me of all those benefits the bath was known for.

So taking a sulphur bath was a must, very much like a stroll in the bone-chilling cold the previous day. Now, a million-dollar question was how to brave into piping hot water in a blistering day of June? Hold it, it was not a million-dollar question; it was a hundred-rupee question only. That I had no bathing trunk was my alibi and it was just not acceptable. The motivators around me were ready with their suggestions: Go ahead, man, and buy a swimming trunk. The place is cluttered with so many shops selling some temporary bath-wear for a hundred rupees. I avoided spending the amount. Okay, I could take a plunge even wearing a towel—no issue.

Come August: A Milder Rohtang

Still, the pool petrified me. I dipped my feet. Oh my God! So hot! It felt like somebody was bent on punishing me. My skin would singe—it was only a matter of minutes. I’d look like a plucked chicken then. I’d look white, like a potato peeled up or a banana skinned down.

A couple of minutes gone, there was change. A welcome change, I supposed. I did not feel that water was so unbearably hot—at least that was what a part of my body saying me, the part that comprised of my toes and shins and knees and feet… I thought I could do a little extra and lowered my body, little by little. There was something still inhibiting. First off, I must tackle it. I knew, nay I was acutely aware that there was a part of my body which needed extra coolness. I was going to plunge that into the pool of water that could scald. Would it melt along with the extra fat that was hidden behind the skin? Even in the midst of the super-hot sulphur pool, my brain led me to something macabre and funny: I might have read it somewhere. The hangman knows it: before the fellows condemned to death lose their lives in the gallows, their privates go rigid. This is a reality, a macabre reality, a shameless eventuality. Sometimes privates behave autonomously, rebelling against the brain that possesses it, falsifying the conscience that controls it.

Bubbling Hot Water Before Entering the Pool

I just lowered my entire body, including the ones that pined for extra coolness… except my brain. That one, the thinking machine atop my torso, alone needed coolness and I was only too willing to grant the concession. Rest others should singe, if it came to that. I just sprinkled some water on my head. That was the final act. That constituted my hot ablutions.     

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By

A. N. Nanda

Shimla

07-06-2014

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